“In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” John 1:4-5
The book of John has been a lifeline to me right now. John 6 towards the end? That floats through my mind daily…has for a long time now. I have NEEDS and He (Jesus) says I can reach out to Him, take all I need…whenever I need. However much I need. I’ll take it! Got a lot of darkness around me…I need that light He talks about. That Light which He is. And the life He offers? No way I’m missing out on that.
“For from His fullness we have all received, grace upon grace.” John 1:16
Grace upon grace? Grace upon grace. I’ll tell you something, there are many people out there who I do not want to let down. I care about them deeply, and I want them to be able to count on me. BUT, my God? I can’t bear the thought of failing Him. I do not have much to offer Him. Just a fully surrendered heart, full of love and passion for Him, and trust in Him and His truth. And He gives me His Spirit and powerful tools to be able to do that. It is possible. But at times, I turn away. Why oh why, do I do that!? Offered love, forgiveness, mercy, and salvation from a perfect God and I taste that…then I push it away. Not coerced or tricked into pushing it away either. But actually snubbing my nose at it by my own free will? That is troubling. And after I have done it, my heart aches; it sobs in despair. There is no comfort for such foolishness. There is no peace knowing I am once again utterly alone. Completely dependent on myself again, and that it is hopeless. I may as well give up and die, cursed.
But that’s not the truth, is it? This God is more wonderful that my wildest imagination. John wrote that from His fullness I receive grace upon grace. Do I deserve that? ¡Definitivamente que no! ¡Jamás! (Sounds way cooler in Spanish..plus I get to use those upside down exclamation points. English totally needs those!) I deserve judgment but Jesus says, “Because of Me and My sacrifice, you get grace…upon grace”. And because He said it, I believe it. I have chosen to let Him build my very life around His words. That requires faith. I mean, have you heard some of the things He said?! They do not sound possible to my very weak and faithless human ears. But He is either Absolute Truth or an absolute liar and phony. I believe He is Absolute Truth. Doubt comes up; fear presents itself, even sin rears its dreadful head…and I say, “Listen to me, heart and mind, we are going to trust in God. He is truth. We belong to Him. We follow Him. Enough of ‘that‘. We will move in His truth. Not in doubt, fear, or sin.”
We have never-ending hope in our God. There are not many places we can use the words “never” and “ending” together. But with our God? Well, they can be used almost constantly, can’t they? Never-ending joy. Never-ending peace. Never-ending life………
But I will hope continually and will praise You yet more and more. Your righteousness, O God, reaches the high heavens. You who have done great things, O God, who is like You? Psalm 71:14, 19