I’m declaring this right now–Jesus reigns. My heart has been divided lately–enough! NO MORE! I have been knocked to the ground. Helplessly covering my head and curled up while I have been beaten almost to my very core. Closing my eyes and wondering, “Is this really where I’m at? How’d I get here?” I couldn’t get up. Haven’t been able to get away from those fists and feet attacking me. From those chains being wrapped around and around. I think it’s because without fully realizing it, I’ve been trying to do things on my own. Thinking, subconsciously, that I should just be able to figure this out. But when I cry, “J E S U S!” and reach up my hand, it meets His and He LIFTS ME UP. And I did. “JESUS!” When you are down, sometimes you can’t get up. Call on Jesus. Our hope lies only in Him. (Hebrews 4:15-16; John 16:33)
Am I still weak? Yes. That’s why I need friends (a.k.a. the body of Christ). I do not trust myself. I need to be honest and transparent with them. I have some who pray, some who sweetly encourage, and some who just bluntly speak the truth. I need them all. I texted a friend last night and said, “Hey, I know I wasn’t going to do continue doing such and such, but here is why I want/need to, would that be ok in this instance?” (I made it sound a little spiritual for good measure) She basically responded, “No. That ‘spiritual reason’ has nothing to do with anything, that’s just your excuse for being able to do what you want to do.” Yep! Spot on! Just checking her receptors! 😉
Ok, just to clear the air, no, I have not been living in persistent unrepentant sin. Just been attacked and tempted by a sneaky and persistent enemy. I read my Bible. I pray. Every single day. My heart’s desire is to please God. “You are a ‘strong’ Christian, Katie. How could YOU be struggling like this? How could you be tempted and truly want to give in to it when you love God so much?” Well, because satan does not pick areas of our life that would be easy to resist. He may throw a few of those in…but he hits us HARD in areas of our life where we have been earnestly desiring things and praying for things, yet they don’t seem to change. It appears nothing is happening and we grow a little weary. Then he brings along something that vaguely resembles what we’ve been longing for. And it may seem good for awhile. But it robs us of true joy and peace. It robs us of the PERFECT wonderful plan that God has coming. When God is about to do something big in our life (& if your life is fully surrendered to God, I believe that is the norm and not the exception–He is a BIG God!), satan fights and attacks like crazy. he comes along to steal, kill, and destroy. But Jesus came to give life, hope, joy, peace, and freedom! The enemy is not worthy of anything! We need to speak out loud to ourselves, the enemy, and others around us that Jesus is worthy and He reigns. He reigns over our hearts. “And all the powers of darkness tremble at what they just heard. Because all the powers of darkness can’t drown out a single word.” (Rita Springer) They are helpless when we call Jesus to our side. We are helpless without Jesus. But with Him? We are more than conquerors (Romans 8:37). Who reigns over your heart, your mind, your soul today? Declare it out loud. I was DECEIVED! The blinders have fallen. I’m seeing quite clearly now. I am not a idiot. 😉 I feel I’m fairly intelligent. I love God with all my heart. I pray/worship/read Bible daily. But I was deceived. satan goes around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour. (1 Peter 5:8) he wanted (wants!) to devour me. Be alert! Put on your armor. (Ephesians 6:10-18) Share your struggles with trusted God seeking friends. We are in a war but we aren’t going down. Jesus leads in power and victory!
Jesus, YOU reign over my heart, my soul, my mind. You reign!!
Trust me…I’m off to twirl, squeal, and delight in my Lord and Savior who has set me FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Powerful worship. It’s long, but I encourage you to listen…