When many of His disciples heard it, they said, “This is a hard saying; who can listen to it?” But Jesus, knowing in Himself that His disciples were grumbling about this, said to them, “Do you take offense at this….” John 6:60-61 (Read more to get the whole picture. I’m just focusing on these verses.)
Ever hear that? Has Jesus ever directed those words at you? I do not know His tone in that particular situation. I can guess but can’t be sure. But I have heard those words…with a “Katie” attached to the end of them. “Do you take offense at this, Katie?” “Does this offend you, Katie?” “Finding My words offensive, Katie?” And they are never in an accusing tone. Jesus does not accuse. satan accuses. I hear plenty of accusations from him. But not from Jesus. Jesus loves. He speaks truth. His eyes burn with passion, love, and truth when He asks those questions.
He says something. My eyes look down. I turn away a bit…a little defiant. “Did that offend you, Katie?” He knows me in and out. He knows when I find something highly offensive. When either I do not understand, or, far more likely, when I understand perfectly but I do not want it to be true. When I do NOT want to listen and obey.
Are you hearing this? He doesn’t leave. He doesn’t give up on me. He speaks truth. Asks me to answer in truth. I am dust. He is the Creator of the universe. High King and Ruler. And I turn my back on Him? I look away…when He loves me enough to speak truth? I hate it that I do it. I love Him. Supposedly, I love Him and trust Him with everything. I am not proud of my defiance. I am broken over it. Crushed that I would ever treat Him that way. And, yet, I do. His mercy, His grace, His forgiveness shown to me are truly ASTOUNDING! I do nothing to deserve them. And though I trust and have faith that He will continue to extend them to me (as He promises in His Word) I desire that He help me to lift my eyes a little sooner at the next “offense”. That I will turn back to Him more quickly the next time. And that each day my desire to be more like Him and glorify Him will grow until one day I will not lower my eyes or turn away at all. That is my desire. He knows that. And He loves me in the meantime.
Though He slay me, I will hope in Him; yet I will argue my ways to His face. Job 13:15
Behold, I am of small account; what shall I answer You? I lay my hand on my mouth. I have spoken once, and I will not answer; twice, but I will proceed no further. Job 40:4-5
I know that You can do all things, and that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted. ‘Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge?’ Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, things too wonderful for me, which I did not know…but now my eye sees You; therefore I despise myself, and repent in dust and ashes.” Job 42:2-3, 5b, 6